My due date is next Tuesday, and I’m greatly anticipating Owen’s arrival! I don’t know how much more “nesting” I can do! Painting, making and freezing meals, organizing closets, rearranging rooms, you name it [I mean really, even making a home management binder]- with each passing day I wake up with another wild idea of how it would make life just a tinge easier if I did another task. With all of that being said, aside from my little projects, I’ve taken the last month of nesting to go back to my first love. Blogging aside, just practicing what I have been praying for since 2014 began – worship in the mundane. Gloriously, God has been so good to give me just that (most of the time)- sweet, sweet worship. Worship in correction, worship in being still, worship in being busy.
Norah Grace and I have spent our spring primarily outdoors thus far. All she talks about are red ants, silly worms, moo cows and rocks! Our stroller rides and hand-in-hand walks have been a treasure for me as I count each second with her a gift before we welcome baby brother into the world and out of utero. I’ve been basking in God’s marvelous handiwork in creating the human mind. As I see Norah’s thought process develop day in and day out as she begins chanting her ABC’s or trying to count on her fingers, I look back at the days when she was under a year and I wondered if she would ever remember the songs I was singing her. Turns out, she sings them with me now:)
I’ve been using this time away from the blogosphere to check my heart and fill it with scripture. In preparing for Norah’s birth, I wrote out promises of God made throughout the bible and put them on note cards with the corresponding scripture. This time around I want to hide a long portion of scripture in my heart so I have an anthem of truth to cling to while dealing with the pain. It’s been neat to not walk through this alone – Josh has our entire youth group memorizing Romans 8 together as well! There is such power in the recited Word of God, and I’m glad to have accountability as we work through the same text.
During Holy Week, I’m taking each day to soak in Christ crucified and raised, especially with consideration over the two souls I’ve been given to invest my life in as a mother. 2 Corinthians 4:6 is the verse I pray over Norah- “For God, who said, “Let light shine out of darkness,” has shone in our hearts to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ.” We pray with hope that God will shine the light, Jesus our Lord and his saving grace and power, into Norah’s heart at a young age. I’ve had conversations with people considering God lately; however, they deviate from Jesus and speak of a generalized “God” figure. I am convinced biblically that such a God outside of Jesus and the gospel is nonexistent. I am sure of this. There is one name that we call upon to be saved and that is Jesus. His blood holds the reconciling power. Romans 3:25 is steady on my mind for Owen- Christ, “whom God put forward as a propitiation by his blood, to be received by faith. This was to show God’s righteousness, because in his divine forbearance he had passed over former sins.” I painted this verse on a pallet now hanging in Owen’s nursery. I pray this verse over his soul now and all the days God has set before him. Josh and I long for not only the deep theology in this verse to penetrate Owen’s heart, but the vast love of God that flows richly through it to be known to him. The blood that runs to make us righteous before God is that of Jesus Christ, to him be the glory and honor forever!